"Lucky I am in love with my best friend..." - sang Jason Mraz and Colbie Caillat.
I strongly believed in this until I lost my love and my best friend at the same time.
It is true that when you are dating your friend and especially a best friend, it seems that your relationship will be stable and fun because you already know almost everything about each other, from your interests to past relationships, you have same hobbies and friends and feel comfortable sharing whatever is one your mind even if it is the most ridiculous and random thought.
It is not surprising that a friendship between a boy and a girl will develop into something more. One day you when you are hanging out with your friends, you will suddenly want to stay behind for a bit to spend some time with each other, you will give him this long hug that you habitually give each other every day, but one day it will be a bit longer and a bit more affectionate. One day you will realize that he is so special to you, you will notice something in him you never paid attention to when you were "just friends". You will think about him all the time, but you will be too scared to admit to yourself that you like him, because friendship is so fragile and you don't want to make it awkward for both of you. Luckily, he feels the same way and tells you upfront, but you value your friendship too much to put it under risk. However, after couple of weeks, you can't resist your feelings that grow stronger anymore, and you decide to give it a shot.
... Your relationship was perfect and wonderful, and fun... But well, things happen and you just broke up. You are brokenhearted and confused. You have so much memories that barely fits in your head. You can divide your life into two distinct parts "friendship" and "dating". You have a choice - go back to the first one or go each his or her own way and never see each other again. You try to think rationally: "Well, we were friends before, so we can just go back to the status quo and cherish the memories of our love" But no, it is not that easy. Yes, you can still hang out with him and your common friends, go to the movies, parties, laugh together... But you will always miss calling him with a funny nickname you randomly came up with, you will miss your long walks in the park, you will miss taking care of him when he was sick... And one day he finds someone else you will be legitimately happy for him, because he is your best friend, but only you know that deep inside you wish she was you.
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