About things...

It's surprising how much you can learn about yourself when you are going through a break up. For example, I never thought it would be so hard for me to get rid of his presents. Well, not to really "get rid of", but at least to hide them somewhere. From myself... Ok, so I figured that I can get very attached to things which remind me of something valuable, someone I love. It took me about four months to remove the stuff animals from my bed...

One is a beaver and another is a penguin... They both have names and stories behind them. I "won" the beaver in a bet. I don't remember what were we betting about, but it was a funny story. He gave it to me the day before my flight home. He wanted me to bring it with me, but I decided to leave it at his place because it was too big. I got the penguin from him after my trip when we went to the CNE. He won it in a game and I picked a prize. I was happy like a little child. First of all because I adored penguins, secondly, because it was from him.

So yeah... Four months. Every time I was going to put them into a box, I just couldn't help it and held them tight as if it would bring him back... And they ended up at the same place. But recently I put them into one of my suitcases after the trip to another city. It felt weird and empty at first, but well, it was a big step.

There are still many other things that I are not ready to remove yet... Maybe it will take another four months?...